Read the complete account and choose the answer that preserves the writer’s feeling or position in context. Complete all 8 questions before selecting Check answers.
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The promise I stopped asking for
An original fictional account.
Paragraph P1For months I considered a residential writing weekend, collecting accounts from people who had attended similar courses. What I wanted was not simply a description of the sessions. I wanted evidence that I would leave feeling the time had been well spent. Whenever a review raised a doubt, I looked for another which would settle it. My expanding collection gave me more detail about other people's weekends, but it could not tell me in advance how I would respond to my own.
Paragraph P2The tutor I eventually contacted refused to promise inspiration. She explained the daily workshops, the individual feedback and the time for working alone, then said that participants responded differently. Initially I mistook that qualification for a lack of confidence in the course. On rereading her reply, I found the opposite more convincing: she was clear about what she could provide and unwilling to invent what it would do for me. The answer offered less immediate comfort than a promise, but a better basis for choosing.
Paragraph P3A friend recommended the weekend while admitting that she had written very little there. She had returned to an unfinished story several weeks afterwards, using an idea which only then began to make sense. I found her endorsement helpful because it included that awkward delay. It did not prescribe a timetable for my progress. If anything, her account made me less inclined to judge the event solely by how productive I appeared while sitting in its workshops.
Paragraph P4I booked the two-day course rather than a much longer retreat I had also considered. The shorter commitment did not make a satisfying experience more likely by itself. It made the consequences of disappointment easier for me to accept. I could give the work serious attention for a weekend without deciding that writing should reorganise the rest of my life. That limit allowed me to proceed; it was not a prediction that I would enjoy every part of what I had chosen.
Paragraph P5The first exercise left me unusually self-conscious. Other participants seemed to begin quickly, while I crossed out the same opening line several times. I was tempted to turn that feeling into a verdict on the whole decision. Instead, I noticed how little of the course I had experienced and stayed for the later sessions. This was not an instruction to feel cheerful. I remained uncomfortable, but stopped treating discomfort at one moment as a complete account of the event.
Paragraph P6In the individual discussion, the tutor said that my narrator explained too much before anything happened. I disliked hearing it. Yet her question about what a reader could discover from an action gave me something specific to try. I did not need to enjoy the criticism in order to use it. By the end of the discussion, my view of the comment had become more generous, although I would have been dishonest to describe receiving it as a pleasure.
Paragraph P7A few pages emerged the following week. I was pleased, but resisted saying that they proved I had chosen correctly. A reasonable choice could have led to a less productive week; an impulsive one might sometimes work out well. When considering whether to book another course, I returned to what had been knowable before this one and what I had subsequently learned. The outcome was relevant information for a new decision, rather than a device for rewriting the quality of the earlier reasoning.
Paragraph P8I still feel uneasy when committing time to something whose effect I cannot predict. I no longer expect that feeling to disappear before I can make a choice. Planning now means identifying what I need to know, accepting what remains unresolved and deciding how much commitment I am willing to make. I have not acquired a taste for uncertainty in every part of life. I have become more willing to act alongside it, without demanding a promise that an honest organiser cannot give.